{"id":490,"date":"2019-09-07T08:07:26","date_gmt":"2019-09-07T08:07:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/?p=490"},"modified":"2021-07-20T12:00:42","modified_gmt":"2021-07-20T12:00:42","slug":"podzimni-deprese-loading","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/2019\/09\/07\/podzimni-deprese-loading\/","title":{"rendered":"#podzimn\u00ed deprese loading…"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Mil\u00fd den\u00ed\u010dku, <\/p>\n\n\n\n

chladn\u00e9 r\u00e1no m\u011b cestou do pr\u00e1ce lehce \u0161imr\u00e1 na krku a j\u00e1 se tomu sna\u017e\u00edm alespo\u0148 trochu br\u00e1nit t\u00edm, \u017ee zasunu bradu do tenk\u00e9ho kab\u00e1tku, kter\u00fd jsem si vzala, i kdy\u017e se mi k outfitu moc nehod\u00ed. Rozhodla jsem se pro n\u011bj toti\u017e prakticky ve dve\u0159\u00edch. Okna aut na ulici u\u017e jsou tak trochu „podzimn\u011b“ zaml\u017een\u00e1, stejn\u011b jako vitr\u00edna, ve kter\u00e9 u n\u00e1s na vsi vystavuj\u00ed parte. Pracovn\u00edk technick\u00fdch slu\u017eeb si p\u0159es z\u00e1p\u011bst\u00ed p\u0159et\u00e1hne ruk\u00e1v, kter\u00fdm po zam\u017een\u00e9m skle p\u0159ejede, aby se dozv\u011bd\u011bl, kdo n\u00e1s na sklonku l\u00e9ta opustil. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Zat\u00edmco ze zast\u00e1vky sleduju d\u011bn\u00ed u m\u00edstn\u00ed s\u00e1mo\u0161ky, postav\u00ed se vedle m\u011b kluk v tri\u010dku s kr\u00e1tk\u00fdm ruk\u00e1vem. Ve sv\u00e9m \u010dern\u00e9m kab\u00e1tku na n\u011bj po o\u010dku kouknu a p\u0159em\u00fd\u0161l\u00edm, kdo z n\u00e1s dvou je tady divn\u00fd. Podle jeho v\u00fdrazu, evidentn\u011b uva\u017euje nad t\u00edm sam\u00fdm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n

Vybav\u00ed se mi vzpom\u00ednka, jak jsme p\u0159ed 14 dny le\u017eeli na dovolen\u00e9 v It\u00e1lii u baz\u00e9nu a n\u011bkdy kolem sedm\u00e9 jsem nahlas vy\u0159kla skute\u010dnost, \u017ee mi za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 b\u00fdt zima.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

„Jo, u\u017e je celkem chladno. Taky kon\u010d\u00ed l\u00e9to,“ ozvalo se z vedlej\u0161\u00edho leh\u00e1tka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

„Tohle v\u016fbec ne\u0159\u00edkej nahlas!“ \u0159ekla jsem lehce na\u0161tvan\u011b, jako kdyby to, \u017ee n\u011bkdo tohle zamy\u0161len\u00ed pronesl, m\u011blo vliv na tom, \u017ee konec l\u00e9ta je nebo nen\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jen\u017ee ono to tak prost\u011b je. Skon\u010d\u00ed aperolov\u00e9 vysed\u00e1v\u00e1n\u00ed na zahr\u00e1dk\u00e1ch, letn\u00ed grilova\u010dky, no\u0161en\u00ed odv\u00e1\u017en\u00e9ho oble\u010den\u00ed i vztahy. Nad domem mi p\u0159estanou po ve\u010derech houfn\u011b plachtit letadla s turisty, proto\u017ee si mo\u0159e pot\u0159ebuje odpo\u010dinout. P\u016fda je prost\u011b p\u0159ipraven\u00e1 na lehkou podzimn\u00ed depresi, kter\u00e1 se vyhne jenom t\u011bm nejstate\u010dn\u011bj\u0161\u00edm z n\u00e1s. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

V\u017edycky jsem uva\u017eovala, pro\u010d zrovna podzim je pro lidi tolik depresivn\u00ed. P\u0159\u00edroda p\u0159ece hraje v\u0161emi barvami, chystaj\u00ed se halloweensk\u00e9 p\u00e1rty, za\u010d\u00edn\u00e1 hokejov\u00e1 sez\u00f3na, dlabou se d\u00fdn\u011b a d\u011blaj\u00ed se d\u00fd\u0148ov\u00e9 pol\u00e9vky \u2013 s t\u011bmi jsem je\u0161t\u011b nikoho nevid\u011bla smutn\u00e9ho. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Jen\u017ee je to neskute\u010dn\u011b sentiment\u00e1ln\u00ed obdob\u00ed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilancujeme, co jsme za ten rok pro\u017eili. Kam jsme se pod\u00edvali, nebo \u017ee jsme naopak (op\u011bt) sed\u011bli doma. Kolik lid\u00ed do na\u0161eho \u017eivota p\u0159i\u0161lo. A kolik jej opustilo. Necht\u011bn\u011b, ne\u010dekan\u011b, nen\u00e1vratn\u011b. H\u00e1dkou, smrt\u00ed, dokon\u010den\u00fdm t\u00e9matem, po kter\u00e9m u\u017e se nedalo otev\u0159\u00edt \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9 nov\u00e9. Doch\u00e1z\u00ed n\u00e1m, kolik jsme toho nestihli, navzdory tomu, jak optimisticky a zap\u00e1len\u011b jsme si na Silvestra kladli za c\u00edl v dal\u0161\u00edm roce v\u00edce cestovat, vymalovat kuchy\u0148, shodit 5 kilo a kone\u010dn\u011b sv\u016fj vztah posunout d\u00e1l.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Stoj\u00edme tady, v opadan\u00e9m list\u00ed, kter\u00e9 hraje v\u0161emi barvami a doch\u00e1z\u00ed n\u00e1m, \u017ee dal\u0161\u00ed rok na\u0161eho \u017eivota je pomalu ale jist\u011b u konce. A spousta z toho, co jsme cht\u011bli, se n\u00e1m nepovedlo. Ned\u00e1 se to zvr\u00e1tit. Nem\u016f\u017eeme cestovat \u010dasem zp\u00e1tky do ledna, kdy byl dal\u0161\u00ed rok jenom nepopsan\u00fdm pap\u00edrem. Te\u010f u\u017e to tam v\u0161echno je. Ztr\u00e1ty, n\u00e1lezy, zklam\u00e1n\u00ed, h\u00e1dky, promarn\u011bn\u00e9 i vyu\u017eit\u00e9 \u0161ance, lou\u010den\u00ed… <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tahle v\u011bc je pevn\u011b zasazen\u00e1 a nem\u016f\u017eeme s n\u00ed nic d\u011blat. Ale n\u011bco pro sebe p\u0159ece jen ud\u011blat m\u016f\u017eeme. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Depresivn\u00ed podzim m\u016f\u017eeme zm\u011bnit na podzim na\u0161eho \u017eivota. U\u017e\u00edvat si v\u0161echny ty posledn\u00ed tepl\u00e9 doteky slunce po boku t\u011bch, kte\u0159\u00ed s n\u00e1mi dal\u0161\u00ed rok vydr\u017eeli a navzdory tomu, jak p\u0159\u00ed\u0161ern\u00ed n\u011bkdy um\u00edme b\u00fdt, neode\u0161li. Vyu\u017e\u00edvat posledn\u00ed mo\u017enost vyp\u00edt si na ter\u00e1sce kav\u00e1rny capuccino, klidn\u011b zabaleni v dece. A pozorovat v\u0161echen ten ruch kolem. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vyu\u017e\u00edt de\u0161tiv\u00e9ho dne a na posledn\u00ed chv\u00edli se p\u0159ece jen pustit do malov\u00e1n\u00ed t\u00e9 kuchyn\u011b, proto\u017ee v prosinci na sebe budeme py\u0161n\u00ed. Vyrazit na posledn\u00ed trhy a nakoupit si tam \u010derstv\u00e9 potraviny, proto\u017ee to, \u017ee se v\u00e1m nepovedlo shodit je\u0161t\u011b neznamen\u00e1, \u017ee v\u00e1m t\u011blo nebude vd\u011b\u010dn\u00e9, \u017ee mu d\u00e1v\u00e1te n\u011bco dobr\u00e9ho. A v\u011b\u0159te, \u017ee kdy\u017e to budete d\u011blat pravideln\u011b, odm\u011bn\u00ed se v\u00e1m za to. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vyrazit na hory a sledovat, jak se p\u0159\u00edroda pomalu, ale jist\u011b p\u0159ipravuje na zimu a p\u0159eb\u00edr\u00e1 tak \u0161tafetu po unaven\u00fdch pl\u00e1\u017e\u00edch. Nebo se prost\u011b jen vydat na houby. N\u011bkdy jsou toti\u017e ty nejv\u011bt\u0161\u00ed z\u00e1\u017eitky daleko bl\u00ed\u017e domovu, ne\u017e bychom si mohli myslet. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

A byla by velk\u00e1 \u0161koda nevid\u011bt to hezk\u00e9 jenom proto\u017ee v kostech c\u00edt\u00edme konec. P\u0159\u00edchoz\u00ed, ale i ten, kter\u00fd u\u017e d\u00e1vno p\u0159i\u0161el. Nejkr\u00e1sn\u011bj\u0161\u00ed v\u011bci n\u011bkdy p\u0159ich\u00e1z\u00ed v momenty, kdy u\u017e na nic p\u011bkn\u00e9ho ne\u010dek\u00e1me… \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Mil\u00fd den\u00ed\u010dku, chladn\u00e9 r\u00e1no m\u011b cestou do pr\u00e1ce lehce \u0161imr\u00e1 na krku a j\u00e1 se tomu sna\u017e\u00edm alespo\u0148 trochu br\u00e1nit t\u00edm, \u017ee zasunu bradu do tenk\u00e9ho kab\u00e1tku, kter\u00fd jsem si vzala, i kdy\u017e se mi k outfitu moc nehod\u00ed. Rozhodla jsem se pro n\u011bj toti\u017e prakticky ve dve\u0159\u00edch. Okna aut na ulici u\u017e jsou tak … Continue reading #podzimn\u00ed deprese loading…<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":492,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-490","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-off-topic"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/09\/5790A0F7-BEF5-44D8-A13D-B0AB8BE4EA1E.jpeg?fit=398%2C398&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pa81Mi-7U","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/490","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=490"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/490\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":493,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/490\/revisions\/493"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/492"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=490"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=490"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ironicka-blondyna.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=490"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}